"Happiness Now and Forever"

So I don't know rather to try and play catch up for all the months I have been a slacker or to start from today? I really want to go back and write down what's happened the past couple months, but for now I will what's been on my mind lately...

Life... I have come to learn lately I NEED to enjoy life one day at a time! I have to stop thinking about what will happen next and I definitely have to stop waiting for things to happen. I often find myself saying, "I will know what to do and things will be better after this happens." or "if this would just happen I will feel fulfilled." I find myself counting down for little things, which isn't bad, but then I'm hoping after they get here I will know what to do next and I wont feel empty anymore and sadly that doesn't happen... I'm tired of not knowing, yet I've stopped planning what I think should happen or what I want to happen because it's not happening and it's so frustrating. So, for now I am going to find at least one thing I truly enjoy each and everyday!

I'm approaching graduation within the next 2 months and there are so many options so many different paths to choose from yet I don't know what to do I feel as if I am stuck. And I'm tired of being stuck... so I was laying in bed two days ago snuggling with my puppy, because I stayed home from my internship to have a "me" day, and it happened to be exactly what I needed! I was petting my puppy looking deep into her eyes, into her soul, that god created and it hit me, "god has a plan for you Alicia, you are not alone." There is a reason I am here at this point in my life and there is a reason why things have happened the past two years the way they have! As much sorrow I may have felt, trials I have had to face, and true JOY I have felt in the darkness of night!  I know I have a loving Heavenly Father and he has placed people in my life who love me unconditionally, support me, and believe in me! He has given me the experiences I need to make me a stronger person; he is shaping me to become! It's the little things...

I'm not going to be tired, sad, and frustrated anymore thinking about what's going to happen next or fearful for what may not happen next. 

Elder Richard G. Scott delivered a message called, "Happiness Now and Forever." He expresses:

We must learn to judge ourselves not by what we are but by what, under the influence of the Lord, we may become. We do not have to measure our potential for success by our known capabilities alone. We can count on the power of God and its expanding influence on our lives. We can know that our ability and strength can be magnified to meet any challenge that confronts us.